| guess who`s back. =]
christy :: just so you know, you are the only person that knows. like i said, i didn`t want anyone to know. that`s why i said no when you first asked me. i didn`t think anyone would actually understand it, but then you obviously did. i didn`t want to tell certain people because they would be asking me why, and i didn`t want to tell other people because they would talk about you-know-who. y`noe? and when you told me those things about you, i thought that maybe you`d actually understand. so i told you. you know the feeling, that whenever i`m around him it`s just weird..and you get all excited and stuff. and happy. and it`s like..talking to him is just great. y`noe? and it`s great and all that i can tell him things, even things that i haven`t told anyone in "the car" when i barely knew him. and it`s the feeling whenever i`m around him that feels so weird..and whenever we talk i can`t help but smile. y`noe? it`s like you. and i`m happy for you, too. verry happy. i hope everything goes great. i love you, christy, and i know you understand me when i talk about how i feel...and because you said that words couldn`t explain what you felt. that`s how i feel inside. you could be the most beautiful person in the whole city of vallejo when you`re happy. and i like that. when you`re down, it`s like i don`t know what to do, because i feel like i don`t understand you. i didn`t really expect things to turn out that way...when you told me you-know-what...i just wanted to love him and that was all..but then i guess there are some things that happen when you want them to, unless you`re wrong. lol. you`re the first person i told, because i thought you`d understand how it feels. it`s like, ever since that day, all i could think about was him. i even took that thing around with me everywhere i went. remember? i still do. i just hope that you and him are right...and even if you`re not. i guess i`m okay with that. because it helps in the first place to know that i can let go when i really want to. if you know what i mean. i love you lots, christy. i hope you stay happy.
...bloggggg.
well, anyways. where do i start? well, i haven`t blogged in while, now, huh? umm. i`ll start with thursday. FDC tryouts. last day, too. verry verry sexxy, even tho i wasn`t there most of the time. haha. so i went to starbucks and mcdonalds with chad, chris, ryan, and tatianna ][ after we picked her up. ][ and uh...curissa. tia left us tho. =[ so then we went back to the school. hung out for a while. i had chad`s fone and i was messing with it. and i had it the whole time we were there, `acause he let me. lol. so then there was a booster meeting. some people left, some people stayed. blah blah. i hung out with chad &"spikes" the whole time..like i did most of the practice time. chad knows who i like? yeah. the only one. =] and then he knows the other thing too. `acause somebody wanted to tell. hmm. well yeah, hung out with them two the whole time. talked, stuff like that. y`noe.
and yesterday, hogan tryouts. before, though...me, chad, eric, dustin, gabby, christine, and tati went to mcdonalds. that was fun. and chad and dustin were talking about the beef in the fries. haha. funny. and then chad and christine kind of gave us a tour of the school. and we saw chad`s locker. HELLA much of kristin kreuk in there. haha. and i had chad`s fone again for the whole day. and i dialed his voice mail because i still knew his pw. and then i didn`t tell him and i told tati and christine not to tell him, too...but then later he had to use it and he found out. haha. suckkkerrr.. but it was funny tho. and he was like "...because the last person i called was chris, not my voice mail." so yeah. that was funny. and people asked me again if i...y`noe. and yeah. geesh. man. haha. that`s like. what, 9 times already?
well then later, i was on bass, but i already knew i wouldn`t get because, number one, i didn`t know how to do a few things or i sucked at it really bad, and two, all the people who were trying out had already been a bass before. so yeah. and then they [//: the instructors] were telling me things when they went to talk to me. but they didn`t tell me what i got? so then i left, got dustin in. and then later when everyone was packing, they called me back up. and they told me that i could be in pit or a cymbal, and to chose. and i was like "aw, fuckkk.." because i want to be a cymbal, and the other instructors wants me to be a cymbal, but i kinda wanted to be in pit too...and tina said she wanted me in that. and i think next year i`d miss it if i wasn`t. and i was thinking and then tina goes and says, "...but i`ll need you in pit." and i go, "really!?" and yeah. in my mind i was thinking noo...tina! because that hella affected my decision. so then later i talked to a few people about it. chad, chris, marie, joe...and marie and jojo told me that i should be in pit..and why. so yeah. and so i guess i`ll be in pit. because i think i`d miss it too much, and because they said it`s hella fun at hogan. and...even tho i told #3 i wouldn`t...i am. sorrrry.. lol.
and today, i went to the movies with my two best friends. and then we went to a party with my family. i guess all i have now is two best friends, seeing that i can`t really trust "the car" because they still talk about me behind my back, and that anthony can`t be my best friend like he was ever since late 7th grade now because someone`ll get mad. oh well. sucks to be me.
BTW, some facts--
1.) chris is not psychic. [//: uh...inside... joke? ]
2.) i have two more stinkers. woo! count `em! [//: thanks, chad. ]
3.) only suckers suck butt, only suckers hate, only suckers bite, only suckers talk mess about their friends.
4.) please stop asking me if i like him. how many people have already!? nine million. sheeeeesh.
5.) chad loves kristin. =]
6.) i`m not ever ever replacing FDC`s pitline o3o4. so stop saying that. please?
lol. =] uhhh...what was i gonna say again? MRLARMRLA. haha. damn. the year`s going by hella fast. and i`m getting in hella trouble. why? i don`t know. but then i do know that i`m finally raising my grades. for the sake of my graduation. =] and and...i`m gonna hella miss FDC o3o4. forever ever ever. my first year in drumline. oh mannnnnn...i`m hella gonna miss you guys. so how are you guys gonna tell me all these things near the end of the year?! lol! sheesh. and #3 called me "sister." awww.. man. shiit. i love you, bro. you`re the best. and i love all of you guys. thanks for a grrrreaaat year. even tho the year isn`t over yet...*wink wink. so stay in touch with me. or else i`m gonna kill you. haha. =] and if you guys cry on me on the last day or whenever...i`ll give you pushups! haha. just kidding. but then..if you cry, then i`ll cry! ..so donnnn`t. lol.
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all i`m wondering now is...if i do stay in pit..will i regret not being a cymbal?
oh, and BTW...I DID NOT SKIP 5TH PERIOD ON FRIDAY. IT WAS LOCKOUT AND I HAD TO CLEAN THE DAMN CAFETERIA. SO STOP ASKING ME, PEOPLE! SHEEESH. YOU GUYS ARE MAKING ASSES OUT OF YOURSELVES BY ASSUMING. |
